It is just another angle that you could look at life

"One does not love another if one does not accept anything from him". Anonymous

It is simple, very very simple but we make this mistake all the time.

When you are truly love, you do not consider gain-loose when you give and take.
People will feel rejected when you do not want to receive anything from them.

Have a good look at the picture, which hand is taking ? which hand is giving ? You can not tell, right ? So give or take in love, it is just an action to show your affections.

Take my words for it, I learned it from my own experiences and from people around me.

To whoever that i did hurt "I am truly sorry that i hurt you and your feeling ..."

Korean War Stories

I was watching Korean War Stories today. I do like watching historical documents, especially war documents. It is not because i want to see fighting, killing ... It is because i love to see how human, people when they are in the spot. And believe me, the place that you can see the most humanity reactions is in a battle, in a war.

Only when you have the choice to become a devil or a human being, it is when you can really tell who you really are.

There was a part in the Korean War Stories that stuck to my head.
"A platoon of US Marine was moving along a street of Seoul, when they were trying to recapture the South Korean capital. They saw a Korean kid (3-4 years old) was crying at a corner. One marine asked the other "what the hell is he crying about? he did not get any hurt." The other one replied "Because today, he realized he is a Korean."

What a great answer !!!

I was instantly think about Trinh Cong Son.

Anyway, just some things that i want to share.

Happy New Year y'all

Entry for November 22, 2008

Entry for October 25, 2008

Muộn phiền trong mưa
--- Quốc Bảo ---

Không còn nữa ngày thêu nắng muôn màu
Còn đâu nữa tình xanh và tay ấm
Mưa tựa giấc mơ về trên gối hát ca vu vơ
Thế thôi nhưng khi tỉnh giấc em buồn mãi

(*) Vì trong cơn mưa xưa em xa tình
Vì mưa rơi xôn xao tan giấc yên bình
Mưa về mưa ướt mềm hết môi xinh
Và vì tình anh cho em như mưa mùa
Để tim em yếu đau cho mưa lùa
Bấy nhiêu mưa mà trút hết mong chờ

Mưa quạnh hiu về trên phố tiêu điều
Lòng em đã lạnh băng từ lâu lắm
Anh là bão giông vào cuộc vui phút giây hư không
Tóc em phai mau cùng giấc mơ buồn bã

(*) Rồi cơn mưa đêm nay anh phương nào
Một mai đi qua nhau quên hết câu chào
Thôi thì xem như tình chết trong mưa
Và cuộc đời em trôi nhanh theo mưa nguồn
Một trăm năm vắng anh thôi không buồn
Trái tim em giờ hóa đá lăn dài
(Mấy cơn mơ rồi cũng hết buồn vui)

Entry for October 22, 2008

You know that this entry is for you, don't you.

You came here and we had a wonderful week together. I was just so happy and i could see that from you too.

You left and i felt so bad watching you walked through the terminal. You missed your gate. I understand what was going through your mind at that moment. I also understand the message in your eyes when we gave the other the last hug at security check in.

I went back to my place and your scent is still here in my truck, at my room and on the shoulder of my T-Shirt. I can still hear your voice in the kitchen (we cooked dinner last night).


I drove home after work. Turned on my radio and listened to the song "Casablanca"

"...........................................
Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
..........................................."

I laughed with myself "yeah, we did not have that" but with any future visit to the places that we were last week, i will miss you, i will miss the way you laugh, the way you made jokes, and even the way we walked together.

I would never forget any of those sweet memories.
Any more word would be not necessary. You know clearly what i always want you to have ...

"Ngày hôm qua là thế" a wonderful song

Ngày hôm qua là thế

Ngày hôm qua là thế chìm khuất trong mưa xóa nhòa
Nhìn em đi lặng lẽ qua những buồn vui
Ngày hôm qua là thế từ tháng năm cũ tìm về
Tìm trong em nụ hôn quên lãng đầu tiên

Đợi em qua đường phố thao thức, cả gió mưa cũng dịu dàng
Ngày hôm qua, dù nắng bôi xóa, dù mưa còn rơi
Ngày hôm qua là thế biển tiễn đưa cánh buồm về
Ngày hôm qua dù sao tôi đã chờ mong

Một sớm mai nắng, về trên hàng cây và gió tha thiết
Chỉ có em nơi nào, đại dương vẫn khát khao
Chỉ có em biết từng đêm, từng đêm tỉnh giấc
Chợt thấy ta giữa xa lạ, nơi nào

Vàng phai đi mùa thu, để lá hoa hết phiền muộn
ngoài kia, còn có mây trắng trời xanh
Ngày hôm qua mình đã mơ ước, một ước mơ dẫu bình thường
Ngồi bên em hoàng hôn đâu đó rụng rơi

Ngày hôm qua cạn lối, chỉ có anh trước biển rộng
Chợt nhận ra mình cô đơn giữa đời nhau

YouTube Ngay Hom Qua La The

what the heck are people thinking ... ?

Found this blog on ngoisao.net "Trusting" . I just don't understand why people lost their believing into others.

"Ai đó đã yêu một lần bị dang dở, trở nên mất niềm tin vào những người khác. Cho rằng chẳng ai thật lòng, yêu thật lòng làm gì cho khổ? Mọi đứa con gái đều hám của, hư danh, mọi tên đàn ông đều phụ bạc, đổi lòng. Niềm tin của họ đã trao lầm cho người xấu, họ đang mất niềm tin. Sông có chỗ sâu, chỗ nông, người ta có người tốt và kẻ xấu. Mất niềm tin là họ đang đánh mất ngọn lửa của trái tim, giúp nó đốt cháy O2 nuôi sống cơ thể, họ đang chết... Hãy cứu lấy họ, hãy nuôi dưỡng niềm tin và trao tặng nhau."

What the heck this life will be if you afraid to love, to believe into other ?

You have nothing left to live for

so why don't we just love as if this is the first love, why don't we just love as if this is the last time that we could love, why don't we trust people as much as we could (just not to the point that they could kill you, save your life so you can continue loving..)

Want to write more in here but ran out of words so "B.S." just love as if you are going to die tomorrow.

A beautiful poem

I got an email from a spam service, but i told myself "What the heck, let's give it a try".
I went around a couples links that they have on there website and found this poem from a person in Macedonia.

The poem is beautiful so i copied and pasted it here to share with you all.

Don`t turn away

Don't turn away, before the night is over
Don't turn away, before the night is gone
Don't turn away, the night may hold the answer
So don't turn away, before the night is gone

So now I'm asking you this question
Am I gonna give you all my love in vain
Do you wanna drown in your own sorrow
Or are you gonna try to love again

Don't turn away from what you feel inside,
You should try to forget about all your foolish pride

Don't turn away from me baby,

Don't put me away,
Don't walk away from me darling
I need your love,

I need your love to rescue me,

Blogged by HRIS. St.,

Full six years since I put my first step on America soil

Hey guys,

Just want to touch base with every people. This is kind of a big deal to me.
A lot of good, bad, pretty and ugly things in the past six years but it is kind of things that make life not so boring.

Another day

It took awhile to find some valuable thing to post on here. Just hope that we can all learn somethings

Another love story

Another good one (linked from Xanh rêu's blog)

I think this is a good short story

Please forgive me for my language but I have to use the language that i and my friends use around here.

"This story is deep shit"

- Nhạc Trịnh, chỉ nên nghe khi con người ta đã thấm thía nhiều thăng trầm ở cuộc đời! - Đoạn, ông nốc cạn một cốc, miệng hít hà một hơi. Rồi lại vu vơ nhìn ra ngoài mưa. Mắt ngầu ngầu hoe hoe đỏ, rồi bật khóc...

Dốc sương mù

Another great song

Hey all,

A buddy of mine sent me the link of this song. I think it is a great song. You have to find it out yourself

YouTube "Torn between two lovers"

Saigon, nhớ

There is no need to say a word

Just listen

YouTube "Em con nho hay em da quen"

A good book to read

This is a good book. Just hope to share with all of you out there.

This is in PDF format. Download here

This is another PDF file (2 pages in 1 for printing purpose) you can rotate the page in PDF to read. Download here

Good luck

To be the man is be where you needed the most

There is no fancy thing about the above saying. The only thing that i want to mention here is what kind of "things" that you provided for your love ones. What kind of "things" that your love ones need

And be careful, if you would not be there when you were needed, someone might be

1. Material stuff, most of the time this is what we think about instantly. Yeah, people need support with this all the time. This is very very easy to provide and if you think that this is the only thing, the most important thing then you are about to be hurt really really bad.

2. Time, Did we give our love ones all the time that they need from us? Did we patiently listen to their problems?
3. Love, Did we stay with them when their feeling is down? Did we hug them when they feel emptiness is all around them?

The two bottom ones are very hard to provide, but if you don't give them out, you will never receive them back.

Do it today
1. Give them the love that they are hungry from you. It would never be too much to love some one.
2. Give your love ones as much time as they need from you that you could afford.
3. Work hard so your love ones could have a better material life.

And you will have a happy family and you will be a happy person.

Every people deserves to have a happy family

Yes, every people deserves to have a happy family.

1. When you are happy, you can tell your good news to other members of your family to have the happiness increased that many times.

2. When another member of your family has a good news, they could tell you that good news and it could make your day.

3. When you don't have a good day, falling back in soft, warm open arms of your family members could cut the sadness to half.

4. When you feel mistreated by the world, falling back in warm open arms of your family members give you the feeling that you are right, you have supporters.

5. When you feel you are lonely in this world, finding yourself between the arms of your family member let you know that you are not alone in the world.

6. When you feel you are worthless in this world, falling back in warm open arms of family member will make you feel that you are still important for them.


And please DO IT NOW before it is TOO LATE

- Do not let your family members feel that they are not important to you.
- Do not let your family members feel lonely in this world.
- Do not let your family members hungry for your loving.
- Do not let your family members hungry for your caring.
- Do not let your family members hungry for your supporting.


and because it is you;

- The one who is little in this world.
- The one who is lonely in this world.
- The one who is hungry for loving, caring, supporting.
- The one who needs a family.

YouTube: "25 minutes too late"

Everything will be over somedays and there is no forever pain

I am going to meet her today. The main reason is for picking up the rest of my belongings. Another thing is that we just want to meet the other the last time before we move on.

There will be no game playing today.
There is no hidden plan today.
Today is just for us to change from husband-wife to friends.
Today is for us to tell the other all the sweet things that we did not let the other one know before.

It was not so bad for me yesterday. I felt better. I accepted that she was there with me before and it was the most exciting part of my life so far. We went through hard time together. We leaned against the other to move forward. We both learned so many things from the other. There is nothing good that i would not do for her and she told me that she would do the same for me.

The sun is rising up. A new beautiful day is out there. Life is a chain of doors. If one closed then there is another one opened. There is no need for me to keep holding the unhappy thing that we could not change. Life for each of us is not a straight line. There is no warranty that we just cross the other only once.

We just want to keep the happiest memories with us.

What family is for !

My feeling was so bad lately. I came home after a 12 hours driving back from Rhode Island. I met my younger brother online. We chatted a little bit then i told him about my issue. He is 21 years old. He is my younger brother but most of the time i think of him as my old son too.

The second sentence that he told me after he patiently listen to my problem was "I am sorry that i could not be there to hug you bro!". He also told me that the relationship between three of our brothers is just so weird. It is just not like other brotherhoods that he knows of. He called our brotherhood is a "blessing". He also reminded me an old story between us. I was so caring for him at that time so i pushed him hard. And once time, i got a little bit happy and told him a joke "You are son of our Mom, why do i have to take care of you so much like you are my son!". This is one of the best happiness that a person can have.

We bonded together by blood and also by other things. Blood family is the place that you fall back when all other family types fail.

Lessons that i learned from my brothers

1. Don't screw up any family that you have.
2. Blood family is the place that you will always be accepted.

Sleepless in Rhode Island

It is Saturday morning and 3:39AM now. I got up early in the morning again, the house is quiet. There is no body here now to cheer me up, to keep my mind occupied. Thousands of things are running through my mind and it instantly reminds me about my lover. She usually says "I am thinking of hundreds of things in my head right now".

There are many things that remind me of her. Actually everything is somehow having her image in there. I was listening to the song "Mua hoa bo lai" ("The left behind flowers"). I remember when we first met. I tried to translate a section of the Vietnamese song to English for her

"Life would eventually sweep away everything. For the young, mischievous autumn (the man), you are forgave, even thought you were late. I am the little flower (the woman) in the garden, i am sorry for could not being here with you. I was dieing in this garden's corner waiting while you were still wandering somewhere"

I listened to this song 10 times at least on the way i drove up to Boston and every single time, i thought about the dream that my lover had after i translate the figurative meaning of the Vietnamese song. She is so romantic and my heart got squeezed again. I don't want an ending like in the song.

There is another song that i just caught the meaning of it during the drive too "Van co em ben doi" ("You are still in my life") of TrinhCongSon. There is a sentence in the song that sticked to my head and my heart "For every healed wound, there will be a joy, there will be happyness".

I am praying to God right now to let our wound heal faster and each of us on each side of the wound will be the other one's joy, will get back together whenever the wound closes up to heal itself.

6:30AM and I was trying to get some more sleep when i felt a breeze went through the window. I felt a chill on my back. I tried to wrap my arms around me to get warmer. My heart squeezed again. You weren't there to hug me from behind to keep my back warm. You weren't there in front of me to keep my chest warm. I instantly found out why the breeze got me cold. There are so many empty space around me whenever you are not there. Now i understood your feeling whenever i tried to push you away from me.

God, please has my phone ring, please let me hear her sweetest voice from the speaker "Baby, let go home and fix our family with me!"

Are you a person of Faith ?

Are you a person of Faith? I do not pursuit any body to become a Christian or Catholic follower. I just want to pursuit you on one thing. No matter your believe is, no matter who you believe into, and no matter Who you would call as your highest God, Please have Faith. A person without Faith would face with many challenge, hatefulness. A person without Faith would have no love but just loving himself and it would be the beginning of many many destructions.


Here is my true story about Faith.


I was in a edge of breaking down from some of the issues that happened to me lately. I had two choices; stay in my room to let the issues eat me up slowly and painfully, or i would take some actions to keep my mind occupied and let time does his work. I took the second option.


I was driving from Blacksburg, VA to Maryland and Boston to visit some friends. It was not the right choice as i talked to myself during the drive. Tears were from my eyes after a couple hours at a friend house and hours after i started driving. I was still full with hatefulness, angry and the idea of revenge was in my mind too. The idea of revenge was an evil idea, i would kill them all, all the people that caused me this pain. The evil idea grown bigger and bigger in my mind. It gave me a sweet poisonous feeling. There was no image of God in my mind at the time. I started to feel exciting with all those ideas in my mind then i approached closer to a 18 wheelers truck.


I was commuted back and forth from school and work since 2004 on highway so i have been seeing so many different kinds of trucks but this one was a different one. In my own believing, this truck was mean to be there by God to save me from committing more sins.


The above picture is of Saint Michael, the protector saint for many many people. That was the image that i saw on the back of the truck. I did not put much attention to it and with all the exciting revenge ideas in my mind, I accelerated my car to pass the truck. Then again, a message that saved my life and taught me so many things in a few hours after that.


"Got problems: ... Have faith in God"


"What the hell is that. I don't give a shit, i am in pain now and only revenge can bring peace to my mind, only revenge can make it even." A long cursing idea sparked off my mind.


There was a shocking feeling went through my body and my mind. I had let the devil took over my mind, and I had push God and my lover away from me. I had been putting my needs and wants above others'. That was how the devil got into me, that was how i lost not only my last battle but also the whole last war. I was not facing the challenges with the right things, I challenged them for my own benefits, my own happiness. I could not win the devil that way. The only thing that i could gain from being with devil is forever damages, forever losts.


I busted out crying again, tears were on my face, fall down on my arms. Tears covered my sight that it was so hard to keep driving. I cried out so loud and biting my lips so hard could not stop it(damn it is still hurt now). And at that moment, i saw everything clearly. I was pushing God and my lover away from me, but God is always there for me, and at that painful moment, that hardest moment of my life, the moment that i did not understand where i got the strength to keep carry on. I did not carry on nothing, God was carrying me on His back and i kept bringing more evil thoughts that made it heavier, heavier on His back.


(I am crying again while i am typing there words but not because of the pain, it is because of happiness now. )


I quickly realized the thing that i needed to do. I need too put my Faith in Him. I needed to know that God gave all of us many choices and all of them are for good. But behind His back, the devils also put down their traps, pretty, sweet but poisonous traps. It is a hard game. God could not make the choice for you, the devils did not push you into their traps either. You are the one who make the decision to pick God's choices or fell into the devils' traps. The only weapon that could help you to win this war is having Faith in God.


I started to prayed, and thank you Mom, your old classic pray is always the wisest one. I prayed to God to give me the bright mind to make the right decision. I did not prayed Him to take my pain away, i did not pray Him to carry out the revenge for me, i did not pray him to put me in a position that i could get some pretty lovers. I remembered the lesson from my Mom "you always pray God to give you the bright mind to make the right choice, the right strength to fulfill your choice, the believing so that you keep having more Faith in Him".


For the next couple minutes, I prayed as if i would not have a chance to pray again. Shit, if i got myself into an accident on the road driving like that, i would not have any other chance to pray. I was still crying but i started to feel the devil hands stop squeezing my heart. I started to feel the hatefulness left me, i could feel the revenge ideas are falling off on the side of the road. Those revenge ideas were so pretty, they smelled good and look so damn good, and through my rear mirror, i saw them getting smaller, smaller and disappeared into the horizontal line behind me. The sky is still bright in front of me but i could see the dark behind me too.


(Call me bull shit or whatever the hell that you want to if you don't believe it)


I started to pray for my lover and for her happiness. Everything was happened for some reasons. I might see the result but i might not bright enough to understand it. However in my own believing, if i have Faith in God, there would be no harm any more. If something that happened because it was His Will, then we should obey it. If it was a painful thing, it must be because we are trying to get out from some of the devils' traps. If it was sweet and full of happiness, it must be because we picked up one of God's choices. It is always a Win-Win for having Faith in Him. But any mistake must be paid off somehow, you could get the pain once but free forever, or you could choose to stay still and be strapped and hurt forever.


I chose to free myself. I prayed for more strength, then i started to pray more but not for myself anymore. I started to pray to the ones that i love, that i care about. I started to feel the happiness came into my heart. I busted out crying again but this time was because of happiness. I found the light house that could lead my ship through the storm of my heart, my mind, my life.


I got over my hard time, heart breaking and breaking down just as simple as that. I still afraid that i lied to myself so i kept checking my feeling in the next four hours driving to Maryland. The hurting feeling came and went but it was not as hurt as it was. I arrived in Maryland around 11:00PM and got some drinks with my friend. I was still checking my feeling, and it got better. We went to bed around 2:00AM, i was half sleeping but was still checking my feeling, and it got better. I got out of bed to get some water around 5:00AM, the feeling came back, it hurted this time, and it hurted bad. I laid on bed and prayed again. In a couple minutes, the pain went away, the sorry feeling came in, the regret feeling came in, I kept praying and they went away a little bit.


I am still praying to get over this hard time but having my Faith into God is really helping a lot. Just a little bit to sharing with every one and expressing my faith and good feeling. But i am still in a hard time and hoping that i would not step into any devils' traps.

VirginiaTech walking trail - Huckleberry trail

I recently moved closer to Virginia Tech and my work place and I am starting to enjoy the area. Some of the beautiful places around here are the Virgina Tech Campus itself, the Corporation Research Center (CRC), the New Rivel Mall.

Most of us will instantly think that we must drive our car around the town to get to all those places. Yes, It is true.

But, there is another beauty that connects all those place together. It is not the highway, it is a small, old time walking trail, the Huckleberry Trail. This walking trail connects the towns of Blacksburg and Christiansburg together. This is a trail, so it is no serving auto-mobile, just walkers, bikers (bicycle drivers). One must at least spend sometime on the trail to really appreciate it. The trail can let you start your trip from the busy main street of Blacksburg, the beautiful New Rive Mall, The Virginia Tech CRC, or the Virginia Tech campus or somewhere at the middle of Blacksburg - Christiansburg.

Check out a slide show on Photobucket
Huckleberry trail slide show

Here is some picture that i took when i was on the trail.

Great movie "The Company"

Hey friends out there.

If you like spy movies, movies about the war between the smartest minds, movies about the war between bravest people then you should try the movie "The company" out.

I spent all day today to finish that movie. After the movie completed, i did not waste any minute to start to tell you guys about this movie.

Remember, this is a spy movie, so a lot of thinking, twisting, double twisting, and YES, you would not waste your time to watch this movie.

You can even watch it online if your internet connection is good. Follow this link "Watch it online" but i highly recommend that you use the above link to have a good context of the movie.

Enjoy the movie then thank me later.

Chelsea 2 - 1 MU

Damn it !


My team lost to Chelsea. I can not believe it. I don't want to believe it BUT it is the truth.


Damn it, MU, you just needs a draw. You broke my heart


You are better not screw up this season.

Áo Trắng

Lâu rồi không dùng tiếng Việt để viết blog, thực ra la chưa bao giờ dùng tiếng Việt để viết blog nhưng có những điều mà chỉ có ngôn ngữ mẹ đẻ mới diễn tả được nên phải đi kiếm chương trình UniKey cài vào máy để viết bài này.

Ai trong những người đọc blog này vẫn còn đọc "Áo Trắng" ?

Tôi vẫn còn đọc "Áo Trắng". Nhiều lúc cũng tự thắc mắc tại sao mình thích đọc "Áo Trắng". Nhiều lần nghe mình tự trả lời mình "Ai mà biết, tại thấy hay hay !". Nghe xong tự nhiên thấy mắc cười, tại vì 90% khi mình trả lời như vậy là do mình không muốn nói ra nguyên nhân thực sự.


Nhiều truyện tôi đọc trên "Áo Trắng" là những truyện có kết thúc mở, là những truyện kết thúc nhưng vẫn đọng lại cho mình một câu hỏi, là những truyện mà khi đọc xong mình sẽ mỉm cười vì tìm thấy đâu đó trong câu truyện hình ảnh của mình nhiều năm về trước.

Nhiều truyện khác trong "Áo Trắng" giúp trả lời những câu hỏi, những băn khoăn, những suy nghĩ theo đuổi mỗi bản thân mình lâu quá rồi.

• Không thể và có thể chắc chuyện này là câu chuyện của 90% chúng ta. (Tác giả cũng hơi bị dễ thương nữa. Không tin thì kiểm tra đi)
• Chùm phượng vỹ tháng tư thì hơi theo phong cách cổ điển cho nên hiển nhiên vẫn dễ thương (1991 đang học lớp 10 chỉ vì muốn chứng tỏ là dân chuyên Toán mới là lãng tử thứ thiệt và ngầu không kém mấy đàn anh lớp trên, tôi và mấy thằng bạn nữa đã bẻ trụi hết hoa phượng của cây phượng trước cửa lớp. Không có đứa nào bị gì hết, ngọai trừ bị thầy chủ nhiệm chửi là "điên", lần vừa rồi về thăm trường cũ, thăm lại cây phượng mới thấy đúng là điên thiệt)
• Đi mua sự cô độc thì đọc đúng vào ngày sinh nhật cô đơn, hay cô độc của mình, thế rồi tự hỏi "phải chăng mình cũng đi mua sự cô độc cho chính mình ?"
• Nắng Sài Gòn vẫn thế sao mà giống hồi học lớp 9, hahahahahaha, cũng đi cắm trại Đoàn trường, cũng làm quen 1 cô bé, không phải ở trường khác mà là ở lớp khác. Cũng không hoàn toàn là cắm trại nghiêm chỉnh mà là có úynh nhau trong đó nữa, vậy mới là yêng hùng chứ. Chỉ có một chuyện quá học trò không thể quên được, cô bạn nói ở trên rủ đi ra quán gần đó ăn kem, hahaha, dại gì mà không đi, cô này chắc là thích mình mà, với lại còn đủ tiền cho 2 ly kem mà. Chỉ có trời không chiều lòng mình thôi, tự nhiên có thêm 2-3 cô bạn của cô ta đi ra sau, và ngồi ăn kem cùng bàn với mình nữa. Kết cục là không thấy thằng bạn nào đi ra cho mình mượn tiền để trả mới chết, làm cô bạn phải đứng dậy đi trả tiền cho cả bàn. Lần đầu tiên cảm thấy nỗi khó khăn khi đi với bạn mà túi không có tiền.

Cũng còn nhiều truyện khác khá hay nhưng tìm chưa ra để quảng cáo cho mọi người cùng đọc. Thôi thì để dịp khác lại quảng cáo tiếp.

24 hours before I officially turned into 31. April 19, 2008

More than five years ago, as a young guy with all energy, all dreams, all about career, all about success, i arrived in this country. There wasn't much in me about enjoying life. Everything was about ambitious, everything was about achievement. Then i met her, she was my instructor to show me some other parts of life that i neglected.

• She taught me to take a minute to enjoy a pretty afternoon.
  
• She taught me to do somethings for myself.
  
• She taught me to slow down to enjoy.
  
• She taught me the lesson to lean against the other to get stronger, to over come hardship.
• She was there for me during my loneliness.
• She was there when i sicked.
• She was there to wipe my tears during my hardship.
• She was there to see my successes.
• All up and down time she was there with me.
• She gave me a chance to redeem myself from a young arrogance guy to a more mature man.
• Lessons that we learned together will always be valuable for me for the rest of my life.
  

Now i am laying here wrote these lines about her and munching off my sadness and loneliness. Some how the old Chinese saying popped up in my mind "Men build family when he reach 30th".

But for me "No country for old man"

Life is still moving, she will doing fine and I would be alright too. But why don't all good things turn into better, and why there are "worse" and "worst" in this world.

Yes, just as my old time college friend in DC always tells me. If there were not "worse" and "worst", then we would not have "good" and "better". "Worse" and "Worst" must be there so we could appreciate "good" and "better".

I know, I sound old. Hope that there still be a country for this old man.

Hey, This slide show thing is very cool.



The house was not completed at the time

Stories that make me feel life is so beautiful

These stories will make your heart get warmer. They really make us feel happier to know that we were lucky to have a loving family, loving parents.

Trust me, you do not feel that you need it whenever you are inside of it. But for those guys who are away from family. We miss it.


Water from boiling eggs

My Mom

Writing about my Dad

There is a mother

and There is a man

and another man

I was here in this coffee shop so many times and saw so many little kids came into this store. I watched those kids many many times and they reminded me about my childhood.
In some ways, i feel sorry for those kids. I do not see many of them understand and appreciate the beautiful of stillness. They burn themselves to the last calorie and think that is the way to go. I can sense the emptiness in them and miss so bad the time that us, little kids, walked for hours on the field, stayed on some tree's branches to enjoy the wind, the sky.

I missed so bad to be a young child and really feel lucky that i got a wonderful childhood like that.

Read the news and find out that so many people are in love with this lovely flower. There are many of them around my house, my school and my work place.

I took some pictures of them and placed them on photobucket. Check them out for now. I will put some more up there later.

I learnt this thing from a friend. It is kind of cool

Japanese cherry

The rest of my Tet Holiday in Vietnam (cont)

• Coffee with some lovely friends: We called some friends to go out for dinner and coffee. I love Beef Steak, so the plan was go to the restaurant around 7:00PM, get some steak then go and have some coffee. I picked up an ex-co-worker at her house (5 minutes from my house). She is my favorite co-worker, very smart, kind-hearted and fun. We stopped by the former company, talked to my former boss, then we headed out to the restaurant with another pretty and lovely former co-worker. Hahaha, could you imaging that, i and two lovely ex.......................co-workers. We waited at the restaurant for some other male ex-co-workers but they did not show up. They were busy, they hanged up the phone,.... Finally, three of us did not want to wait any more. We went ahead and had dinner. It was so good. We left the restaurant and headed to "Net Viet" coffee. I went on my previous trip too. We got our corner, called around to get some more friends but NONE came. Hey, no problem for me , with two pretty girls, i had nothing to complain. Actually we had some good time, listened to live music, talked about old memories, fun stuff that we did together. The only bad thing was my Margarita, it was horrible, horrible, i am telling you. If you have a chance to be around Texas, get yourself a top shelf frozen strawberry margarita. Margarita in Texas is awesome.
• Ran into a former student: She was one of my student whenever i was a student in college. She met my older brother at her work place so she knew that i was home. She got my Yahoo ID and my phone number. She called me on my phone and on Yahoo too. It was years that we did not see the other. So we agreed that we will have breakfast then go and watch a movie together. We just want to catch up on tales about the other. We went to a restaurant/coffee shop, the place was beautiful but the music was so loud that we did have a hard time to hear the other. We went and watched "Alien vs Predator 2". We wanted to go out for lunch but i promised my Mom to have lunch with her so we head home.
  
• Unexpected event: One of my friend asked me to go out for some coffee and may be dinner. I drove to her house, and by the time i tried to stop my motor-bike, i saw one of my best buddy (that did not come the the previous beef steak night ) stopped his bike in front of my friend house too. I was so happy to see him so i forgot that he stood me up. My first question was " What the heck are you doing here? The girl is going out with me tonight !" and this was the answer "Hey, i am not here for that girl, i am here for that girl's sister !". Hey, nothing to complain. We chatted for about 5 minutes before those two sisters went back to their house. Four of us head out to a pretty, lovely coffee shop that i could not remember the name. We had a good time there too. So much fun when that buddy of mine was around. He had us laugh so hard.
• A planned evening: So my buddy busted my plan, i planned another plan. I and my buddy girl went out for some country food. We ate all kinds of oyster (i could not tell the actual name of each kinds), it was really good. We stopped at another coffee shop. They has a small ditch than run around some coffee table areas. There were so many fishes under that ditch. They had live music too. I saw all the fishes gather at one section of the ditch and i asked my friend and myself "Are they enjoying the music or running away from it ?" The night was wonderful, i love to hang out with friend but do not get us wrong. There was no romantic thing here.
• Eating "RATs": yeah, we ate rats. My younger brother and some of his friends were talking about go to some country restaurant to eat rat. I was up for it. The food was good, but the place was kind of too off-the-road. My former-student called me on my phone, and i asked her if she want to try some rat meat. She was up for it too. It was so cool. We left the place around 9 PM and stopped at a near by coffee shop. some more chatting, old stories, and ghosts stories too. My former student said that she got scared. None of us believe her, she is a tough girl, she would scare the ghosts instead.
• Meet a friend that was a friend of my ex: I met her here on Yahoo 360. I knew nothing about her but she knew some about me. I reviewed my memory and she was not one of my exes. We didn't know or meet the other before. Finally, she told me that she used to work with one of my ex and that was the reason that she knew some about me. (thanks, ex. In both ways, sold me off and got me a new friend ) We planned to meet before but i got drunk and missed that chance. I let her pick out a coffee shop with one condition "No crazy lousy music". She did a good job, the coffee shop was small but nice, the music there was beautiful. We never met but feel like we already knew the other, we had some really good time, we talked about ourself (try to help the other know more about the new friend), told some stories, jokes. We left the coffee shop around 10:30PM. I drove with her home to her apartment to ensure that she went home safe. Hey, more friend means less enemy. I love to have more friend.

The rest of my Tet Holiday in Vietnam

• Luna New Year 2008, 1st: The baby was so tired from the previous night so she slept on and off the whole morning (welcome to party life baby girl ). We did not go to our grand-parents as we used to do. We now has our own grand-parents at the house already . We went to visit my grand-parents that afternoon and of course we missed a chance to meet some other relatives such as: uncles, aunts, cousins,... We went home and had dinner, i felt really happy. This was my Luna New Year after 5 years away from Vietnam.
  
• Luna New Year 2008, 2nd: I stayed around the house until late in the afternoon then i went to visit an old time friend since college. I got drunk after two beers so I missed a chance to meet a new friend.

I could not remember detail to the date things that i did in Vietnam any more. From now on i will tell the thing base on the event.

• Lunch in Binh Duong: I took a laptop back to Vietnam for a friend then i got invited to her house for a lunch. I still don't know which one got me invited for the lunch, carrying the laptop back or being a nice guy , but i really do not want to know. I did not want to drive by myself and all my friends could not go with me, so i got a bike-driver to take me down to Binh Duong. I had some good time with my friend and her family. We had lunch, got some wine, brandy. It was and still a very very happy moment that you have a meal with a whole family. Damn it, i miss that feeling, it is very very simple for most of people but i did not have it for a long long long damn long time. After lunch with my friend family, i went to a re-union lunch with some other friends from college. I was nice to meet them, talk to them and honestly, i was a little bit jealous with them. They are doing very very good, with family and other friends. Damn it, now you know why i called myself "lonely wolf".

Entry for March 14, 2008 BIG NEWS

Hey all,


BIG BIG BIG NEWS

Sorry to bother you all, but this is a very BIG news.


I am officially an American citizen now. Pictures will come soon but right now please just spread the words

I got a little bit better, but i am still lazy

Just continue from my last blog post

• 04:30AM to 05:00PM on Feb-06-2008: Holly cow, this is a big day. I did not have a chance to enjoy the last Luna year day and the Luna new Year Eve for a long time. I think 5 years. However i got a little bit disappointed too. Nothing was actually as i always dreamed of. The feeling, the atmosphere wasn't as special as it used to be. It felt like just a normal day. Tet lost its own value in big cities already, i believe. But I also believe Tet still has its very very special value in rural areas.
  
  
• 06:00PM on Feb-06-2008: we got a taxi and went to Saigon (center of the city). The road was crowed, people were trying to get to the city square for the fire work and the bonsai/flower market. We got off the cab around 1/2 km from the center of the city, we started walking. I got the holiday atmosphere here and i loved it. This was the thing that i was looking for. We took some picture with the most important person, my only niece.

• 08:00PM on Feb-06-2008: We got into the hotel that my older brother is working for. We got to the restaurant and had our dinner there. This is a 4 stars hotel but the food was not that good. The steak was horrible, other food was ok. It was not worth the money. My younger brother took his girl friend to the dinner with us, but we was so busy eating that we did not take any picture of her. She is a really nice girl, too nice for my younger punk brother , i think !!!
• 10:00PM on Feb-07-2008: My younger brother took his girl friend back to her house, she did not want her mother to stay home alone (or her mom did not trust my younger brother enough )
  
  
• 12:00AM on Feb-07-2008: New Year Eve, we went out to see fire work, my younger brother got back to the hotel after a long fighting with horrible traffic, and paid a crazy amount for parking. The baby was awake and joined the celebration with us. She was doing so good. She did not cry that much, and she ate like a pig , a lovely baby pig.
  
  

• 01:45AM on Feb-07-2008: We could not find a cab to get home, the road was blocked. And my younger brother was so sleepy to drive his motobike home. So i took the bike and started to drive home. Good news, my older brother called me to tell me that they finally got a cab. Bad news, I looked down at the gas meter, it was almost empty.That was how my younger brother welcomed me home. Every time that i used his motobike, it would have almost no gas in it. And this is the problem, his motobike is a new model, Honda AirBlade, I had no idea how to open the gas tank cap. I had to ask the guy @ the gas station to open it for me. I knew that he knew i was not steal the bike but i absolutely believed that he was thinking that i was a jackass, borrowed the bike to show off.
• 02:30AM on Feb-07-2008: We got home almost at the same time. I was so tired so i passed out around 3:00AM.